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I Know I Waited

by Ascidzz

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Free 02:22
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Greatness takes its time It ain’t worried what you think of it When you walk with God Everybody wants to link with it It be y’all demise When you take a shot at shrinking him My will’s always mine Got them tangled like Ms. Pinkett Smith We can catch a vibe With the violence and getting big You should have pride Individuals, distinctiveness. Where we draw the line When you switch because you’re envious Fuck about effeminate The shit is ridiculous. This the flow that conquers colonists And make them sink their ships Some of us may die But by the hands of cowards? Think of it I’ll defend my honor ‘Cause these niggas really think they’re witty I know they talk behind us But copy us, tryna kick it with me Anywhere I wander Always making sure I keep it Philly What the fuck’s Wakanda A reminder they deleted history Evil knows it’s time’s up You see how Gen Z’s transitioning Only way to climb is up I rile them up they seek to kill me Everything’s gonna be alright Everything’s gonna be alright Tell me it’s gonna be Everything’s gonna be alright Everything’s gonna be alright Tell me it’s gonna be God calls to his children I’ve crawled to the altar And I’ve longed to be with him My heart’s all scarred Still processing liquid Scotch, vodka, I’m awful Got the toilet out of commission I’ve offered my gifts to them They’re in awe at my difference This is all after scoffing ‘Cause I’m not as into skin as them I’m more for what’s within them Take pause, this is intimate You’re offended ‘cause you’ve Taken part in resenting him Who the fuck is he Who the hell could he be You can tell he ain’t of us But he still seems to be free Had a good time while it lasted Is this the feeling of defeat? I show I care so much I make a nigga’s ego bleed I’ve attempted to decrease But it’s really all I know When I took the lead Everybody took from me at home See what they did to me How the fuck could I not feel alone When I got it on my own Really got it on my own. Everything’s gonna be alright Everything’s gonna be alright Tell me it’s gonna be Everything’s gonna be alright Everything’s gonna be alright Tell me it’s gonna be
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What Does It Mean 01:12
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What does it mean to be normal? I've tried being sweet, keep it clean and cordial I've tried everything, tried even ignoring you It's time to be me, who cares if I disappoint you? Knowing I'm going to. Stuff to look forward to. You think it's as simple as just Pushing and going through it Why would I wish I could Take away what I've learned from you niggas Took wrong turns, met false earners I've burned for you niggas What does it mean to be like you? I breathe, shit, sleep, fuck, and eat just like you I look at my feet and I look way up high, too But something ain't right, dude. Something ain't right. And I will never act like I don't see what my eyes do And I will never let them Hack my mind to say I'm foolish And I will never lie to make them Think that I like foolishness Useless assuming shit You forget we are human skin. Who is this? True religion is pure commitment. A mission from your vision Get with my community Whose views can I mix with? A duo off our hinges And do it all for our friendship A clue that I'll always get But I have never had a friend with. So maybe I come off a bit too Kind at first begin with I say hi, how I was rised The age of 5 I saw the difference I treat my people in a high regard 'Cause if you isn't then a Gremlin might catch you slick off your guard But we risk it Build defenses Tell ourselves we play it smart Walking fences Bought us into being several feet apart Walking benches God in glimpses They portray that as the art Y'all are innocent but It don't mean the Lord won't do his part.
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Goddess 02:47
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I been losing my shit back since smooth was a jit It's too hard to commit when you move every minute This ain't some shit I'ma kick back and listen I'm talking 'bout can you carry what you're lifting Talking 'bout can you bury it or shift it You think that it's scary, I'm being uplifting The best thing to do is to let it all go. Let it all go. Always surrounded by beautiful women They play with my name and my hair and my linens They be like Despues, you're the greatest you're gifted But I'm way too humble for all of that shit These girls will love you then next thing you miss them Like how in the fuck did you get me to switch Throw my six up, it's in this blood That's my life path, tell them give up. I got big nuts for a pickup Put this dick up in your niece. Dirty dreads, purity spreads, Tried to slick up with the grease That's that buildup how I build up Is by measuring completely What's your dreams, Queen, what you need Then I'm gone see how strong them knees be. Get that 3-piece bathing suit I'm tryna hit the beach discretely Baby lie, tell me the sweet things If I cry, won't let you see me Ease my mind, I'm tryna be free Demon time even when sleeping This anxiety be kicking my ass Silently but lethally. All I want is your goddess. Take me with you, Your Highness. All I want is some progress But you know how the mind gets All I want is your goddess. Take me with you, Your Highness. All I want is some progress But you know how the mind gets I can admit I be liking that shit You be hyper than shit When it’s time for the dick Like how you listen Try new positions When you start Talking ‘bout having my kids And when you bother me No ending I’m in your body Still a friendship What we do privately Whose business You’re a divine piece Of your lineage Who I gotta impress I’ve got checks and I’m blessed And I’m having some sex I put my money where mind is And start thinking hard about it Really I need me a compadre Who gone ride with me to death And right off her feet I swept Finally I can see how dimes are spent All I need in my deeds They provide me with the rest I guess. Just be kind to me when I’m stressed. ‘Cause girl you be tripping How you violent over text? You beside me then you help I love how you be analyzing Like every line is a test Love the high rises and Not too shy on the breasts Whatever you like I can get I’m your sky I’ll make you wet
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Do you frequent this place? 02:58
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I just wanna take her home I just wanna take her home I just wanna take her home. I just want to beat that pussy I’ma make sure she knows Ain’t nobody as good as me I just… I’m finna break her bones She told me keep pushing My shit like a stone Digging her all night long. I just wanna take her home I just wanna take her home I just wanna take her home You play with your own emotions I just be playing along Girl you know you looking good as shit The whole place knows We gotta go through the motions Both of us taking it slow Start with your face that I’m stroking Then I be making you “oh” Surprise. When I be changing the flow That’s that level that you can’t get to Unless you are a pro. Make her lose control And she wants a ride She start seeing the other side As soon as I get inside. I just wanna… ooh Get my hands on you Know you in and out And get to understanding you Once I figure you out Consider I put my brand in you Official stamp on you Make a whole camp in you Make it real damp in you… Finna make you catch this Uber I just wanna give it to you Can’t admit what I’d do to you I just wanna take her home I just wanna take her home I just wanna take her home. I just want to beat that pussy I’ma make sure she knows Ain’t nobody as good as me I just… I’m finna break her bones She told me keep pushing My shit like a stone Digging her all night long. I just wanna take her home I just wanna take her home I just wanna take her home
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Me Too 02:51
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I ain't worried if you Love me or not But if you're ever acting funny Hope you never get caught I give my all, they got flaws, yeah but me too I give my all, they got flaws, yeah but me too My love is infinite but Everybody sees love different I give my all, they got flaws, yeah but me too I give my all, they got flaws, yeah but me too I know you ain't met nobody Treat you as good as I do Talk about the brave and the few I ain't no Marine but when it come to my team Believe I'm gone shoot Ask me what I mean, try to get between You gone see what we do You touch a piece, better move it. But I got this feeling in my chest I know you guess my intentions I know the world has been a mess And you won't ever forget it You try to race me to deception I can't finish a sentence The world suffering from depression They insist we be separate You don't understand my pain I do not know what a friend is A black shepherd, I look around I can tell they're pretending They want me when I'm spending They want money to lend them Prayers, well wishes, prosperity Success what I send them I ain't worried if you Love me or not But if you're ever acting funny Hope you never get caught I give my all, they got flaws, yeah but me too I give my all, they got flaws, yeah but me too My love is infinite but Everybody sees love different I give my all, they got flaws, yeah but me too I give my all, they got flaws, yeah but me too They're gone say I'm with the devil They gone say I sold my soul They gone say old me was better They gone say that I got old Try to manipulate me? Never Ain't no issue saying no But where was all this extra effort When I needed you to grow? Somehow you remembered Times you helped, you're keeping score Oh, it's December, heavy winter Hope you didn't leave your coat They got egos made of bronze So couldn't treat me like I'm gold I be feeling like LeBron My team gone win, so what you on? Ain't no reason or excuse, But Ima make sure that you know You want to be an enemy don't be discrete Come let it show I love my people so much But it be feeling like they don't You can't see the vision cool But don't try to take me out my zone. I ain't worried if you Love me or not But if you're ever acting funny Hope you never get caught I give my all, they got flaws, yeah but me too I give my all, they got flaws, yeah but me too My love is infinite but Everybody sees love different I give my all, they got flaws, yeah but me too I give my all, they got flaws, yeah but me too
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Honey Dutch 02:04
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My eyes are up here, dummy Worried 'bout my chest 'cause you been ear hustling Real funny. We ain't fuck in two weeks She said she still cumming. I've been bussing these hoes down... Like a honey dutch I've been bussing these hoes down... Like a honey dutch If her tummy tuck and her butt need puff She be sucking blood out my dick That bitch like Buffy, yuh, come get this nut She gone slay my shit I've been bussing these hoes down... Like a honey dutch I've been bussing these hoes down... Like a honey dutch Hit the pluggy up He like what you want I need 30Gs Of that stuffy stuff I can make it rain When the sun is up Let it shine on me Shea buttered up I take care of myself 'Cause when I wake up I don't think I'm someone else. it be like what the fuck All these druggy drugs Got my stummy fucked up Buggy bug But I know they want none I done let too many niggas get close Seen how they use me and use it to boast. You wish you knew me, Too cool to approach 'Member I used to be doing the most Now I do less and they're giving me more I'm looking right into Your eyes when I see you I ain't got no special surprises So be cool I know you ain't never felt Nothing like this before Getting to my goals Doesn't mean I was trying to keep score You can't just speedrun through your life Gotta keep going I wrap my hands around that mic Them lyrics keep flowing Got harder to sleep through the night My demons see me and die Finally a piece of the pie! My eyes are up here, dummy That's funny .... She still cumming. I've been bussing these hoes down... Like a honey dutch I've been bussing these hoes down... Like a honey dutch .... She sucking blood out my dick ... She gone slay my shit, aye I've been bussing these hoes down... Like a honey dutch I've been bussing these hoes down... Like a honey dutch
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I'm Good 03:00
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It's what you tell yourself You've gotta say: I'm good Some don't want to help, Some just want to play: I'm good It's bad for your health Can't get in the way: I'm good Check yourself: I'm good Tell yourself: I'm good It's what you tell yourself You've gotta say: I'm good Some don't want to help, Some just want to play: I'm good It's bad for your health Can't get in the way: I'm good Check yourself: I'm good Tell yourself: I'm good First of all I'm proud of myself For how far I've came In the gym getting my gains I've been working on my game. How I caught up to these niggas And I put their shit to shame. Dedicated to my vision I can't see no other way. They stare at me 'cause I shimmer shine And I don't need a chain How they tell me they look in my eyes And see I've been through pain I done really conquered flames. ... It fucked my heart up But I'm still the same. I need love, I need love I need love... But all I know is how to be love... I don't know how to receive love I been focused, grinding, Absorbing, refining I'm tryna give you all that I got Ain't no shortcuts, trying I'm going, finding. Whatever's meant for me from my God It's what you tell yourself You've gotta say: I'm good Some don't want to help, Some just want to play: I'm good It's bad for your health Can't get in the way: I'm good Check yourself: I'm good Tell yourself: I'm good It's what you tell yourself You've gotta say: I'm good Some don't want to help, Some just want to play: I'm good It's bad for your health Can't get in the way: I'm good Check yourself: I'm good Tell yourself: I'm good Sometimes I gotta miss out Visiting your party Priority is making sure I'm prepared for when they call me Not a target, just because you're At the wall looking at me How you all up in my business But disregarding me I'm too focused on getting what I'm owed So do not bother me I gotta make sure I'm cemented Before they can walk on me They pick the obvious But I'm too tall for these little trees They'll say I'm Hollywood 'Cause I ain't lost tryna make you see me. Your DNA is piece of cake I had to beat my fate Fuck cards dealt, I look at myself And I see I'm great Wasn't even close to where I could've been Still people hated Every day I'm full of gratitude I keep creating Kept tryna prepare, fuck it I took a leap of faith in it Now we're eating great, innit Seafood and steak, innit Shawty feed me grapes and shit Every single day is lit. Black sheep. Unique. For my loved ones it's the greatest gift.
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Sorry (Never) 02:43
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We live with it Tell me how I do it's wrong Fuck it I'm right in it They like how you do it's been too long Shit I'm quite splendid Been putting my ink to the pad Wanted me to sink, we couldn't sync Gave everything that I had But what's an asset? They hate I be making them add Give me the bag then They looked in my face and they laughed I'm like what happened. They revealed their face from their masks I got that mystery machine I got that scooby dooby doo Dooly dooly doo Make them all go stupid When I move into the room See a nigga juicy Women choosy choosy choose Don't act like you know me, homie Who the hell is you Never had to flex but when I flex They know the work did How you live for years and years And you ain't learn shit? They tried to curse us It ain't just a word, kid. Those with ears, can you hear? You are perfect. Sorry... They don't ever say sorry... They don't ever try To make it better They just see me doing better Then they say they want me It ain't never sorry... They don't ever say sorry... They don't ever try To make it better They just see me doing better Then they say they want me It's a blizzard Told you don't fuck with a wizard Like the money, you're a dummy Never really figured Let them whisper They don't know I did this shit for Love and trying to find out Why we're here on this universe This verse, it hurts Imperialist jerks How the fuck you know a lot If you've never had shit first? I be stomping on my enemies In bunny slippers I make waves, make you shiver It shows on the Richter. This that Philly shit I gotta rep my city shit That niggas on the block wheelieing Wu-Tanging and dealing shit That D-Maccing, with action Make it look like we be chilling shit That get home from the Masjid And get right back to this villain shit A smooth jawn... You let people tell you what's right How you say I move wrong? How I lift that weight from my plight? They like I'm too strong It's automatic when I'm shooting on them Too easy. It be target practice when I pull up on 'em. Sorry... They don't ever say sorry... They don't ever try To make it better They just see me doing better Then they say they want me It ain't never no sorry... They don't ever say sorry... They don't ever try To make it better They just see me doing better Then they say they want me
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RIOT! 01:42
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(They know they ain't got no business Fucking around with the Fucking around with the goat.) They ain't gone keep talking crazy Right in front my face We gone have to say what's up And not no peaceful shake Who knows what they took from us, So yeah we're here to take Yeah we got them huffing puffing Like they need a break We can't sleep evil don't like defeat They'll give us blankets I'm a soldier boy, They hear me on the beat they crank it Tryna make sure history Don't repeat generations How we let us be this weak Truthfully it's amazing Who's strapped up, boots strapped up, Fool act up get stomped Tick tock, no silly watch better get back Your boy is a bomb Forget the gossip I ain't into talking I'm getting far away from the drama Ain't a sign to see, here comes cavalry Sometimes gotta be karma No surprise would've thought them wise Tried to give them time I warned ya Suit and tie won't do this time I'm fighting for my honor You will die tryna scrutinize I think Medusa's my mama Who is God, my useful guide I wasn't raised with a father Riot! Riot! Riot! Riot! Riot! Riot! Riot! Once we stand up, strength in numbers Ain't nobody safe They gone have to put a new roof Up inside this place Riot! Riot! Riot! Riot! Riot! Riot! Riot! Don't be playing with your Life because it's got a date But don't let nobody ever Make you stop your pace
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Why Should I 03:59
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Why should I have therapy If none of you hearing me Knowing all my life something wasn't right That shit be tearing me Staying up every night improving my life I don't really care to sleep Tell me about life, we are not the same It was never fair for me I already know I'm gone have to die For you to cherish me Still could give a fuck I know All love is temporarily. I've got so much strength in me I never needed empathy Besides I'm used to you using That bullshit as an ends to meet. All I'm doing is paying for talking And I know where it leads They gone try to tell me I'm crazy And put those meds on me You act like I'm not motivated Or couldn't change if needed I still get flashbacks of those days When I was berated, beaten Difference between me and you is I don't be chasing demons Difference between me and you is I really faced my demons Difference between me and you Is I celebrate I'm breathing Been done with crying I just lie there staring blank in evenings. Shout out to the outcasts Who auditioned put their passion in it Knew what was their path and went for it They have the best intentions You're the X Factor, an idol And you don't have to win it Laughing at the quitters in effort 'Cause they don't have it in them Getting past your past is a battle You can't just trash your memories Adam taking licks of the apple Wasn't a bad decision Those With Ears hear hold your clapping Let them attack my wisdom They be so hype to react They can't even relax to listen. Why I'm in LA living lavish They don't know half I've been through We must get over the racket But I still packed my tennis shoes Why should I have therapy If none of you hearing me Knowing all my life something wasn't right That shit be tearing me Staying up every night improving my life I don't really care to sleep Tell me about life, we are not the same It was never fair for me I already know I'm gone have to die For you to cherish me Still could give a fuck I know All love is temporarily. I've got so much strength in me I never needed empathy Besides I'm used to you using That bullshit as an ends to meet. They gone keep Testing tryna press me with all this fucking rage Fuck 'bout your discomfort I know you ain't never been rubbed this way Was much too patient Letting my blood bubble with these fucking racists Podcast politics, fucking hate it All y'all can save it Kept my glass half full That means I wasn't drinking Started processing the toxins That means my stomach wakes up. Intuition giving me warnings I had to pause and wait up Sometimes I have to give credit To my own constellations Laughs on Facebook. I was 12 they still tell me I'm out of line Ask why I'm crying Act like they don't know every time They say I'm just whining Meanwhile they told me they were listening I just say yes and dismiss them, sick of fucking trying Thinking of fucking dying Told Katie I'm done with suicide But truly I can't take it And I know what to do this time. Full of rhymes, you entertain your demons But be juking mine Lost so many friends I'm surprised I can use my spine.
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Lion in a Cage 03:40
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I need my breathing space You won't see me today I just want to keep creating Can't let my energy be taken Too long I'd seek okays Meanwhile I'm feeling strange How is it I'm outside Feel like a lion in a cage I want to be myself Sorry you don't see it this way Crossroads with things I've left I give the Spirit thanks. Money won't ease my pain Judge me don't see my change Suffering I see my blame How you want me the same? You're talking to the right one Harsh truths, yeah I like them I walked in it so why run? No excuse on my tongue To you everything's a bygone But won't let me loose when I say bye I'm gone For you never had to ask how high, I jump I like shooting but I'm looking for my dunk No more losing, all I had to do was try once How you get closer act like you have empathy Loving me is torture, treating friends like enemies Not trying to avoid you, I just have inner peace I don't need noise to help me feel settled and at ease I can be cordial but I'm not good with little speech I'm here for you, only moving forward when we meet I give glory, why do I have to be discrete? I need my breathing space You won't see me today I just want to keep creating Can't let my energy be taken Too long I'd seek okays Meanwhile I'm feeling strange How is it I'm outside Feel like a lion in a cage I want to be myself Sorry you don't see it this way Crossroads with things I've left I give the Spirit thanks. Money won't ease my pain Judge me don't see my change Suffering I see my blame How you want me the same? Why should I feel disgraced All on our own paths, mine leads in a different way If you want to ride with me, I advise walk over say hey I just feel obliged to teach, everyone deserves to be great Kingdom inside me, I'm on my knees when I give him praise. Who are you to say you can't hear me when intensity raises Some of the slickest tongues come from Developing a little Patience Bickering is inspiration. So talk to me. Why should I confine to the norm I have been scorned, before I had a chance to be born Planned to abort. Still kicking, I'm meant to move forward Still in it. Honesty, confidence, personality, let them witness it Picturing an imminent transition to kindness God is prevailing over Evil Putting feel goods into conscious See I came from basements, shared rooms and garages But who could stop this Only music could massage his Curious mindset Grew from Monster to ruthless as Godzilla Could sober up, you know you're even more you off the ganja. Who was too proper? You should understand clues in the context. What's a genre that speaks to kings and great rulers inside us Who determines if we get the yards in? I was my own coach Gotta build chemistry to get started Teachers love to boast But tell me what the alumni is Sheep you're supposed to grow Discover what happens beyond this... But leave me out of it..

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Ascidzz Philadelphia, Pennsylvania

First-born out of Philly, I make music for the introvert.

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